Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 3:23:50 GMT
Snow Leopard here *cautiously stepping into thread* I SORRY
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 3:51:14 GMT
So I've finished reading skimming all of the confessionals of the people I know and all of the break room as well. I have some thoughts about all of this that I'll just drop here. I was really sad to see Dark Rey stab me like that. I do think Dark Rey liked me a lot but coordinating with Michael to give him immunity is just really sad for me to see. Considering that if I had won immunity, it would've gone Dark Rey versus Monk, I don't know if I would've preferred that but just knowing that I was stabbed like that hurts. I trusted her so much Specs are right, Monk and Bono were loyal to me 100%. I was entirely right on them and I'm glad I was. My heart would've shattered if Bono stabbed me. Monk I knew was true to me the moment he entered redemption. I'm not sure why I bonded with these two so well. You'd think that chatty players would be attracted to other chatty players but I was drawn like a moth to a flame to these two quiet and composed people. I would be saying the same about Dark Rey but I'm hurt she gave the veto to Michael. Michael winning immunity is not horrible in my opinion. Knowing that it was planned is what hurts. My biggest regret this game is still asking monk for help at the end. Both Monk and Bono told me I was getting voted out and were my best allies. I should not have set Monk out on a suicide mission. I wish Michael talked more with me in redemption. He would've rose in my rankings fast. Maybe if he talked more, I would've been loyal to him instead of Dark Rey. I don't know but I do know that he was online so much but rarely talked to me and I didn't know how to interpret that. Specs are definitely right that I shouldn't be that honest to people. I .... generally like to be honest but I do see how it's not optimal play to be going around and being like "oh im not decided" because that literally comes off as "oh I might vote you who knows" I'm the type who literally like straight up tells people that im pushing them if they ask and its super bad for me tbh. Regarding my sacrifice, I think Michael described it best. He said I thought I owed Monk. Thats the gist of it. I couldn't get over the fact that Monk tried to save me in tribal. I just couldn't. I had the ability to get an unanimous 3-0 on monk and to live on but I didn't have the heart to do it. My heart would've broken into so many pieces if I threw monk under the bus like that. I couldn't do it because if I had lived, that would be because monk died not once, but TWICE for me. I hear you when you say I had so much potential. I could've made it out of redemption. Monk is gonna die anyways. But my heart said no and I just couldn't do it. Before we were even nominated I was thinking about this for such a long time. I just had this horrible feeling deep in my gut. And I was like WHAT DO I DO IF THAT HAPPENS. And I came to the conclusion that I would die for Monk or Dark Rey. Monk, because I owe him my life and Dark Rey, because she has higher chance of survival. I'm happy I met Bono, Monk, and Dark Rey. I think there was something much deeper in our pms than a simple alliance. At the end of the day, this is survivor and allies will get stabbed but I do believe I created something beautiful and I have no regrets.
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 3:53:23 GMT
The bird watcher spec said I was fiercely loyal. Thank you thank you. I told Bono, Monk, and Torhare to vote me once I realized there was no way to go back.
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 3:59:49 GMT
I've thought about what everyone told me and I also asked Dark Rey if I made the right decision earlier today. She told me that if she were in my position, she would reminisce to her ally but still try to survive. All three mods also agreed with that based on their discord conversation with me shortly after I died. What I think about that is that although I know that that is the optimal thing to do there, I can't do it. I take alliances to a deeper level. Maybe that's just me but I do know that even if I were really close to a win, I would be willing to lose my opportunity for someone that I care about. Obviously survivor is about winning alone but I'm just not there yet. I'm a big softie I should try to be less attached to people in future games to prevent this from happening but god, once my heart melts, it's like I've gone insane and there's no path back to where I came from.
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 4:01:40 GMT
This is probably one of the biggest reasons I like Bono. I can tell from that confessional that I completely and thoroughly melted their heart and that they went insane just like I did.
As for Monk and Dark Rey, they definitely aren't the same and I have yet to find out what drew me to them.
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 4:03:59 GMT
I'd love feedback from specs and mods because you guys weren't in the game nor influenced by anything directly so you will have a clearer view on everything. My opinions are biased as fuck and I realize it.
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 4:04:24 GMT
Um yes ... im finally done writing all my essays. You guys can talk now lol
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 4:50:00 GMT
Also someone said that Rey screwed me over by telling me that Zero trashed me but I dont really agree with that statement. Yes I was a little cagey but no matter what, im not going to just tell some rando who my allies are. Like you are expecting waaaay too much.
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 25, 2021 14:44:40 GMT
Oh I guess I also think my rankings and all overall were very spot on. Perhaps not all for the right reasons but it was pretty damn good.
Monk and Bono were my top from the living. Dark Rey and Michael were top from dead. Then underneath in the living was Tor/hare, Ranger, and Bard (all of which I do believe would be somewhat willing to work with me if I came back) Underneath in the dead was Cleric which is good. He wasn't loyal to me and he also is extremely reckless. Under that in the living was Avocado which I do think is a good decision overall. Apparently he "issued the kill order"
Reordering it after seeing confessionals would just be Monk and Bono Dark Rey and Michael Bard Tor/Hare and Ranger Cleric Avocado
I could put gummy in but there's not a big point. Like gummy was just a lurk sack that had 2 pages of pms with me that took like 10 hours to reply to simple messages. And I mean maybe that was just me but gummy was a total lurk sack for me. Like I have a feeling timezones played in a little bit but like Tortoise had waaaay more messages to me than gummy. And another thing that I think is that gummy might've done that because of Avocado which .... is stupid. Believing Avocado in the first place was the stupidest thing possible but just letting someone's opinion on someone else take away the chance you give that person is not that great imo. Like they do them. You do you.
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Post by Owen Wilson as Kenny Bostick on Jan 26, 2021 3:32:55 GMT
hey snow! sorry to be late in responding but I've been banished to the judges chambers after volunteering for the challenge.
You were my favorite player in the game and it wasn't close. You were authentic, passionate, positive, interesting, and communicative in confessional. (By authentic i mean being yourself and not trying to put on a show for the specs.)
A lot of people in the game were saying your problem was that you tried to ally everyone or overplayed. That's not actually my read on it. You only were trying to pull in avocado and monk, which isn't really that much!
In the break room people said you overvalued original tribes and that's definitely true... building on that I think you just didn't consider enough that other people were making their own friends, finding their own monks and bonobos out there in that swap tribe.
So you did overplay but only because you assumed you had more locked votes than you did. I mean, avocado has been dictating pretty much every vote and is still alive and strong, not "overplaying" at least yet, though he may become a target at merge.
But Avo and Bard was an unbreakable alliance, and that made Ranger protected, and I think you didn't consider that sort of thing... meanwhile T&H is a cautious player that would rather placate someone strong like avocado than try to change the vote right now, not only on your boot but also just recently on Gummy's which he didn't agree with at all at first.
Anyway, congrats on a memorable game! You were a joy to watch. I hope you'll join us in watching the rest of the game.
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 26, 2021 4:48:09 GMT
Thank you that paragraph is beautiful! I see what you are saying definitely.
One of my biggest mistakes was making an alliance with monk AND bard. I originally was just allying Monk but I got greedy in the moment and wanted to see if I could get not one but TWO DnD people. That was a huge huge misstep and the main place where I overplayed.
Avocado was kind of a wild card to me. I didn't trust him(because he did throw all of his tribemates under the bus and in public at that) but he had a double vote basically because gummy didn't talk to anyone else or at least not to me. Tor/Hare, Bono and I all agreed on this and Tor/Hare was actually the one to suggest it first.
I was too confident definitely and didn't realize much was wrong until can opener asked me how confident I was that Ranger was dying. That was a huge red flag to me cuz if Ranger was 100% dead like I had previously thought, why would a spec come in and ask like an hour til deadline? Obviously this was an assumption but I started freaking out once I realized that cuz like ... if everyone in their confessional is like "I vote ranger", no spec is gonna come ask an hour before deadline. After I had my freakout I asked Bono and was like "oh shit well sucks to suck XD"
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 26, 2021 4:49:32 GMT
I left telling Bono and Tor/Hare to kick some DnD ass and tbh even now im not entirely sure why I said that. Because I truly did and do dislike Avocado far far more than Ranger and Bard and by a lot.
Tor/Hare was saying it'd be great if I poisoned the returnees and I did. I poisoned them to hate Avocado tho .. not Ranger and Bard.
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Post by Owen Wilson as Kenny Bostick on Jan 26, 2021 4:52:17 GMT
Yeah if you had just kept your head down instead of trying to take out Ranger, then it would’ve been Gummy/Monk going there. Too bad. Also D&D didn’t conspire together on that challenge!
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Phoenix
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 26, 2021 4:57:37 GMT
Yeah I saw that and I'm surprised. I was so paranoid about that because of Bono. Normally I wouldn't overthink things like this on my own(im rather easy to lie to tbh and I can believe ridiculous things sometimes) but bono kept telling me they were definitely lying to me and my paranoia ate me up.
Trying to take out ranger was a bad move. I should've said some anti-ranger things but only to certain people.
I do realize now, after reading confessionals and all, that I was legitimately the only person that was head over heels for monk and maybe the only person that liked him at all but I definitely wouldn't have taken a bullet for monk before I knew he died for me that first time. Like if that first death didn't happen, I wouldn't feel like I owed him my life.
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Post by Phoenix on Jan 26, 2021 5:01:55 GMT
OH oh also! I will be staying to watch the rest of the show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gimme some of that popcorn!
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