Post by Maggie Smith on Jan 14, 2021 22:55:12 GMT
Round 2 - #MaggieMourns
Again, my sincere apologies for the lateness of the hour in delivering this confessional to you. Going from three other people to speak to to eight (and this is not even taking into account the two-headed mutants that I have seen around!) got me just a little overwhelmed. After all, you all saw how much I was carrying on about being in danger on my first tribe! (Which in hindsight now feels even more silly. How did I become convinced that Timothee was a threat to my safety? Blasted insecurity!)
I would have to say that the highlight from the swap was The Tragedy of Darth Plagueis creating a groupchat of he, Dave Thomas, Founder of Wendy's and myself out of nowhere based on the fact that we're old. First of all, way to make me feel my age, old man! As if these wrinkles weren't reminder enough! But secondly, how ridiculously cute! It is so unusual and different and oh how refreshing. And, as it turns out, I don't think there is another group of three that I would rather be a part of here? Dave and I had a lovely brief "what the fudge?" discussion about Darth's approach, however what I love about Dave is that he has just rolled with it as well, going so far as to suggest that it be an official alliance.
It is a little tricky to decide where this trio of myself, Dave and Darth sits in my priorities, but my guess is that it would be quite high. Startling, in some ways.
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As much as I love Dave, my feelings for Bees? and Zero III are certainly less enthused. They are players that I feel compelled to pretend to like however honestly, I feel nothing for them. Bees? are the sort of player that is friendly, social and popular but the connection between us is just not there, and as such they are a stinger in my side. I can't imagine that they feel any more positive about me right now, and I suspect that it will be a matter of us each grudgingly tolerating the other until one of us has our way. Maybe I am being melodramatic though. There is admittedly the potential for things to get closer between the MayBees and I.
Zero III perhaps has less potential. I was actually very excited upon receiving their first message as it showed a sense of humour and an opportunity for conversation:
And while things didn't take off from there like I had hoped, there was some pleasant enough small talk after that. What really rubbed me upside down though, was when there became talk of the vote. There begins a facade of caring about what I think and who I wish to vote for, for Zero to then talk about how he was already voting for Tim because Lindsay and I were "slow but rewarding", while Tim was just slow.
Whatever.
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I think C-3PO and R2-D2 are cute and I want to put a bit more effort into our conversation, while Finn's small talk is very small indeed, and I would vote him out if I had the opportunity.
Which I suppose brings me to talk of the Movie Stars. I feel guilty in that I worry I have neglected the Lindsays somewhat in the last 24 hours. There definitely isn't quite the same degree of LIFE that our conversations had prior to the tribe swap. But this is okay. These things ebb and flow, wax and wane, I at least hope that there is still a strong connection there that can be fostered and cultivated. However, I am filled with less confidence in Lindsay as a reliable partner throughout the game. Letting Timothee go here totally makes sense. He is clearly not connecting with others in the tribe and attempting to keep him would tarnish our ability to form bonds elsewhere. But there was not even a show of regret, of questioning the decision we made the previous round.
I wanted to do something different, to run with Lindsay's seemingly strange idea of voting Michael out instead of Timothee. However, I now realise there is a reason why that is normally not what I would do! Michael would have been far better at connecting with people than Timothee and almost certainly would have made a better place in the tribe for himself than Finn. But then why did I allow Michael to go? Spam's question is such a valid one. I believe I was blinded by my own ridiculous insecurity about being the odd one out. There have been so many times where I have struggled to connect socially and almost been the first boot, that perhaps I have been scarred by that. I thought that Timothee must have been connecting better with others than with me. I thought that Michael must not have had a very high opinion of me at all. It made it easier for me to accept the passive role and let Lindsay run the show.
I made a mistake. It was foolish. And I cannot let it happen again.
Again, my sincere apologies for the lateness of the hour in delivering this confessional to you. Going from three other people to speak to to eight (and this is not even taking into account the two-headed mutants that I have seen around!) got me just a little overwhelmed. After all, you all saw how much I was carrying on about being in danger on my first tribe! (Which in hindsight now feels even more silly. How did I become convinced that Timothee was a threat to my safety? Blasted insecurity!)
I would have to say that the highlight from the swap was The Tragedy of Darth Plagueis creating a groupchat of he, Dave Thomas, Founder of Wendy's and myself out of nowhere based on the fact that we're old. First of all, way to make me feel my age, old man! As if these wrinkles weren't reminder enough! But secondly, how ridiculously cute! It is so unusual and different and oh how refreshing. And, as it turns out, I don't think there is another group of three that I would rather be a part of here? Dave and I had a lovely brief "what the fudge?" discussion about Darth's approach, however what I love about Dave is that he has just rolled with it as well, going so far as to suggest that it be an official alliance.
It is a little tricky to decide where this trio of myself, Dave and Darth sits in my priorities, but my guess is that it would be quite high. Startling, in some ways.
--
As much as I love Dave, my feelings for Bees? and Zero III are certainly less enthused. They are players that I feel compelled to pretend to like however honestly, I feel nothing for them. Bees? are the sort of player that is friendly, social and popular but the connection between us is just not there, and as such they are a stinger in my side. I can't imagine that they feel any more positive about me right now, and I suspect that it will be a matter of us each grudgingly tolerating the other until one of us has our way. Maybe I am being melodramatic though. There is admittedly the potential for things to get closer between the MayBees and I.
Zero III perhaps has less potential. I was actually very excited upon receiving their first message as it showed a sense of humour and an opportunity for conversation:
Maggie Smith? Not sure who that is. Looks like fashion from your avatar, but it's just a guess.
And while things didn't take off from there like I had hoped, there was some pleasant enough small talk after that. What really rubbed me upside down though, was when there became talk of the vote. There begins a facade of caring about what I think and who I wish to vote for, for Zero to then talk about how he was already voting for Tim because Lindsay and I were "slow but rewarding", while Tim was just slow.
Whatever.
--
I think C-3PO and R2-D2 are cute and I want to put a bit more effort into our conversation, while Finn's small talk is very small indeed, and I would vote him out if I had the opportunity.
Which I suppose brings me to talk of the Movie Stars. I feel guilty in that I worry I have neglected the Lindsays somewhat in the last 24 hours. There definitely isn't quite the same degree of LIFE that our conversations had prior to the tribe swap. But this is okay. These things ebb and flow, wax and wane, I at least hope that there is still a strong connection there that can be fostered and cultivated. However, I am filled with less confidence in Lindsay as a reliable partner throughout the game. Letting Timothee go here totally makes sense. He is clearly not connecting with others in the tribe and attempting to keep him would tarnish our ability to form bonds elsewhere. But there was not even a show of regret, of questioning the decision we made the previous round.
I wanted to do something different, to run with Lindsay's seemingly strange idea of voting Michael out instead of Timothee. However, I now realise there is a reason why that is normally not what I would do! Michael would have been far better at connecting with people than Timothee and almost certainly would have made a better place in the tribe for himself than Finn. But then why did I allow Michael to go? Spam's question is such a valid one. I believe I was blinded by my own ridiculous insecurity about being the odd one out. There have been so many times where I have struggled to connect socially and almost been the first boot, that perhaps I have been scarred by that. I thought that Timothee must have been connecting better with others than with me. I thought that Michael must not have had a very high opinion of me at all. It made it easier for me to accept the passive role and let Lindsay run the show.
I made a mistake. It was foolish. And I cannot let it happen again.
